What does it truly mean to be open?

What does it truly mean to be open?

Open spaces are vast expanses of wilderness, sea, or space.

Open hearts are those that consume all forms of energy; love, hate, and everything in between.

Open relationships are those that invite unexpected and unknown connections.

Open lives are those that welcome change, education and trial.

Life is a constant series of trial and error. Today I’ve succeeded but tomorrow I may fail in my endeavors.

So yet, why is it so hard to remain open?

For someone who’s mantra was once:

“To be open is to be free”

“To be free is to be open”

I’m struggling to abide by my own words…

Today I’m in Dahab, Egypt. A few days ago I was in Ras Abu Golum. And tomorrow…who knows where I will go

I’ve truly surrendered to the concept of “one day at a time”

I really don’t know where I will go and right now that’s ok. In that sense, I’m entirely open to possibility. But I guess a part of me is forever scared.

Forever scared of what may be.

Who or what may harm me.

I’m cautious and fearful constantly. I’m open with all but deep down I’m guarded.

My heart lies behind an iron clad wall – flanked by guards left and right.

Is this a wall I should tear down?

What empire ever tore down their walls on their own accord?

None...to my knowledge

Unless they chose to seek peace forever. To not only announce their commitment to peace but to display it visually to all.

With open borders and access every which way, their empire could easily be overthrown.

But yet they hold something their opponents do not.

An iron clad will.

One that no empire could overthrow.

Their will for peace is stronger than any army, solider, or tyrant.

It does not waiver nor will it ever fail in the face of aggression.

Now that is true freedom.

Knowing that your will is stronger than anything else that may come your way.

Anything or anyone that may seek to harm you.

You hold the power within you to uphold your will without walls.

Without anything any opposition would seek to crumble.

There is nothing to conquer as there is nothing to overthrow.

Now the question is…

Can I uphold my will without my walls?

Can you?