As I flutter my eyes closed – the veil is lifted.
As I inhale – I know I am inhaling.
AsI exhale – I know I am exhaling.
As I sit deeper into my seat – I know I am sitting. In contact with the surface beneath me. Feeling the energy from below flowing through me.
As I bow my chin to my chest on my exhale and rise my chest to the sky on my inhale, I feel my body connecting with my breath.
And my mind coming to stillness.
As I think – I know I am thinking.
As I wonder – I know I am wondering.
As my thoughts stray from peacefulness I panic.
I loose sight of presence. Mindfulness. Joy. And happiness.
I fall into despair. Ignorance. And fear.
I’m overwhelmed and consumed by thoughts I cannot control and actions I do not recognize.
As I heat up – I know I am heating.
Falling deeper into feelings of anger, confusion, and distress. One hand grappling with the vine of peace I cannot seem to grasp. The other falling short of the vine of knowing. Tumbling down the vast well of pain and suffering.
Drowning in the sea of sadness as I sink deeper into the never ending well that is my pain.
I no longer can distinguish up from down and left from right as the light around me fades and I’m consumed by darkness.
Engulfed by fear, fear of my infinite and imminent suffering.
Overcome by the iron clad vines that wrap around my wrists and pull me deeper into the abyss.
I sink.
Until I’m limp.
My muscles are forced to relax. As my mind goes blank and my body shuts down.
My heart rate slows and my fingertips go numb.
I’m certain this is the end.
My greatest fear has come to fruition.
My suffering has consumed me.
As I sink deeper and deeper into the well.
Losing sight and consciousness.
My eye lids close heavily over my eyes. Shielding me from the darkness surrounding me as I sink deeper into myself.
And there in the darkest of blacks I have ever seen a light flickers dimly in the distance.
I move towards it.
And the light shines brighter.
As I reach for this light radiating in the abyss it moves away from me.
It’s calling out to me.
Telling me I must leave my body behind.
That there is no other choice. No other option.
The only way I may reach this light is to leave my vessel behind.
As I panic, shaking violently, unsure of how.
How I am to survive.
I let go…
I detach.
I leave my body behind.
I join the light, but only as my soul.
As that is my only way.
My only path to salvation. To grace. To peace.
To love.
I leave my body behind, joining the light anew.
I’m lifted from the sea of suffering into the vast beauty of knowing.
I rise.
I rise knowing.
Knowing I am the soul not the body.
One day I may leave my body behind.
But today…
As I inhale – I know I am inhaling.
As I exhale – I know I am exhaling.
So She Dares 
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